feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

Here are my very confusing dynamics guys

Sunday he was standoffish but cordial. We ended up getting into it a little but we both ended up agreeing we need to talk to each other better. I was visibly mad and he knew it. (I haven't really been showing anger lately so)

I avoid him and he comes in the room later to ask me, "are you ok?" (hasn't asked me anything like that lately) and I say, "no I'm not." He comes over and says, "I don't wanna fight"...I say, "me either" I say...come here and we hug and he gives me a kiss. We can't get our sh*t together huh?

This morning just a matter of fact morning but when he goes to leave he puts his arm around me and kisses me and tells me to have a good day. I don't know.

Then I find an email this morning from a woman from the office that says she can't wait to talk to her friend tomorrow is not coming fast enough! I call him on and ask him. He denies anything (of course) he says, 'I've done nothing wrong." I am a fool for wanting to believe him but I know it can't be the truth.

He is texting me back and forth while driving (he never does that) to tell me I have nothing to worry about. I don't know what to think anymore. I just don't.

He leaves tomorrow morning for his two week business trip. I'm sure she is going so that will be nice for me to think about. I think I'll puke out a lung on that one.

Well...guys I don't know but it seems things are winding down for me - we shall see where this goes.