"And I was tempted. I still have that desperate feeling from time to time, like this is the last chance and if I don't take advantage I'll regret it over the coming sexless weeks . . . or months . . . or years . . ."
Wow, I can really relate. I know how you feel, bcs that's me - if he wants to, I do, whether I'm in the mood or not - bcs I'm afraid he won't approach me again for weeks or months.
Good for you for respecting your own needs. Sometimes even an HD person won't be in the mood, and we always (even us HD people) have the right to say no. Sometimes we lose sight of that.