Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Thanks all.

Where the heck do I start?

First off, New Years, awesome, th ehotel was right nect to the concert venue, the show was amazing, partying in a friggen tent in Chicago on New Years, can't beat it. Of course, by the time we got there, all the food was gone, but plenty of booze to go around. Except the toast at midnight, so we scrambled over to the bar as the servers "ran out" of the complementary champaign! WTF? they did not plan this out. Little to say I was pissed and we ended up getting 2 glasses of Zinfendel (our preferred) on the house versus these little shot glass things of white piss they were peddling to every one else. Great time none the less.

The nitty gritty on the hotel..... I went full tilt on this one. I checked the room in before picking up (x)W and decked it out with rose pedals. The look on her face was amazing. Unfortuantely, add champaign and beer to a walk in subzero weather, and somehow we were both out like lights the moment we got to the room, but woke up a bit later and some may say "TMI", but we ML for the first time in almost 2 years and it was terrific. Unfortunately, when it came to round 2, my head started to clear and wander around, and like Dan Akroyd said in Ghostbusters when chosing the doom of the world, "it just popped in there", ie - OM and her and I couldn't shake it. I was also very nervous because she didnot seem to think of protection being an issue, luckily I did and was prepared, but she seemed kind of like insulted by it?

Anyway, we checked out in the morning and went to 'my house' and played Monopoly for a good portion of New Years day with the boys. They had fun. Then we went at last second to see a movie and by the time we got out and I took (x)W 'home' it was midnight and we were running on just a few hours sleep, so being tired and it being dangerously cold, I opted to put the boys to bed there and stay with (x)W until Saturday morning.

And that's where things get weird.

I spent the bulk of the rest of the weekend moving my stuff out of the basment along with everything else in preperation for my cousin's son moving in this week. So I had but a few minutes to text (x)W here and there. No biggie on Saturday and I tlkaed witht her for a bit at the end of the day while going to bed. She ended up going out to a friends house which I knew would make her sleep in all morning and I had work to do with Cousin and all Sunday so I figured church was out.

Spent yesterday much the same, work work work, until I dropped the kids off by her and brought a few dirnks to sit and talk for a bit, some things went down at 'our house' and her father supposidly went ape on everybody. I don't know what she's getting at, but she everything is "fine" with her father in regards to me, but yet, whatever it is going between us is ours to resolve? Anyway, Everything was fine, we sent the kids off to bed, and I sat in her room with for a bit until it got late and I said I had to go.

Then out of no-where, this send (x)W into a tizzy. Telling me I don't have to go and to stay with her and I tell her I can't, and it's late and I have to go. She then starts laying in to me about being at my cousin's beck and call and not hers, and I should be with her and she started to get real nasty about it. I had no choice but to tell her she has to understand, she turned my world upside down and ripped me to shreads and people, my cousin especially is just worried about getting hurt again. This did not sit well, (x)W continued on her tangent that I do not give her enough attention ( I mean like Glen Close - Fatal Attraction type tangent) and I couldn't take it anymore and it was getting late, so I had to go.

I calmed her down as best as I could and had to keep reminding her that this is the aftereffect of everything from the D. Lives are messed up and it's not going to be fixed overnight like that. As of this morning, she still feels differently and that I 'need to stop drop everything' for my cousin "and focus on her, and talk to her, and don't shut her out". What the hell is this? I ahd to spend a half housr driving in to work and taking this on the phone, and need I say I NEVER talk on the phone and drive, and knows that for a fact, and yet, I'm still not giving her enough attention?!?! Is this normal?

I don't know what to do. I don't know where this attitude came from and what if anything to do about it. She will not listen. She thinks I'm just supposed to up and move in with her and screw everybody else. Yet at the same time, when I point out who I'd be screwing and all they've done for me in, through and after the D, all the sudden the whole D is MY fault. WTF?

Help puhleeeze!