Thanks so much for the responses... I appreciate them tremendously. I wake up so depressed every morning. Am so tired of feeling this way. I just want to feel normal again. I want to wake up without having to convince myself I need to. Sometimes I feel like if it wasn't for my D7 needing me I wouldn't want to bother anymore. And it's in waves somedays I am fine and others I am so down.
I think a conversation last night I had with a friend also made me feel down. After my divorce I'm having a hard time dating. I am attractive etc so I have men that pursue me but then they end up losing interest. I get the she's very high-maintainence thing a lot. I think my H leaving me the way he did caused me tremendous insecurity and it's affecting my dating life too.
I'm starting to feel like I really need to forget about dating or finding a partner. I'm so torn about this. I really miss being married. I loved being married and having a family. So that really is the only thing I feel that's going to make me happy again. But at the same time sometimes I feel so damaged and so insecure I don't know if I am ever going to find someone who's going to be able to love me enough to deal with all my emotional baggage. The last too guys I dated didn't want to deal with it and both weren't interested. Needless to say I think they had they're own issues too.
hope2wrkitout - I really like what you wrote. "he is not a nice person" that's what it boils down to - doesn't it. Sometimes the simpliest concepts are the hardest to grasp.
