This is a really quick post because I am running late to get out the door.
We can talk til we are blue in the face but at the end of the day the decision rests with you. What has God spoken to your heart or guided you to do? No, chances are that he won't come down and sit next to you and say do this or do that but he will speak to you.
There is no reason that you can't seek to find peace and joy in your present circumstances while your issues are being resolved in whatever manner you choose to pursue. HAPPINESS IS AN INSIDE JOB. I am not asking you to be a Christian Marytr but remind yourself that your joy does not depend on your H or what is going on in your life.
You have your boys and I am sure that they are a huge source of joy for you despite it all.
I know that your reality is nothing like the dream was.It isn't for many of us. But God can dream a bigger dream for us that we can ever dream for ourselves. There is nothing he can't do. There is no impossible in his dictionary. Seek his will for you and follow it. Keep trusting him and start waking up smiling, girl.
This is a little cheesy but whenever I feel a little down and out spell coming on I say to myself "I am the prize". We are not pining after someone who has gone in a different direction at this stage, Serenity. We are the prize and we are living life.
And you can talk about shoes on my thread as much as you want. That's what friends are for.
Now I am late, so I will check in with you later...
