Happy New Year everyone! Thanks for all your thoughts, advice, wishes.. Kat I know what that is,it can give you an answer (not my arena, I only know astrological timings!) but you can FB me your thoughts, I'd love to hear them.
So with Mercury going backwards, I'm not sure what will happen with children but bf was very sweet and huggy this am, I was talking to him about how we 'lost ground' (with the S and then his depression).. that even if one were possible (abnormalities/complications aside) I didnt know about two. And that if it didnt happen for us, I worried he would one day leave me as he wants kids. He emphatically told me he was never ever leaving me and that he wanted me more than kids. Phew !
I did a bit more research, seems a positive metal attitude is the key thing for conceiving a healthy child.. like most things hey! You've got to believe it is possible (struggling with that).