careful newmama. careful. Take it slowly and do not over analyze anything. Keep that as-if attitude going. Toss in a crumb everyonce in awhile. But do not accept crumbs.
I say this for you girl.
But keep it going. Sounds like your picnic may have a guest drop by for a few minutes.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!