Getting Un"Stuck" - Giving My Burden to God

[MrBond]

Okay, thought it's been a couple of weeks, so I think it's time to update.

Well Christmas was good. My W came over and stayed the night. She said she would sleep on the couch, but I told her that as long as she was under this roof, she would sleep in bed. So we slept together and got up with the kids to see them open their presents Christmas morning. After that, she left with them to her sister's for the day and I picked the kids up later that night to take them to my parents' for Christmas dinner. I dropped them off to her later that night.

I had the last couple of weeks off, so the times that I didn't have the kids, I spent them with my friend. We had a long talk last week Wed. and essentially I told her that I couldn't give her more than what she wanted right now, so we decided to break it off. Sad, but I know I'm not ready for any of that right now. My M is still my priority.

New Years Eve, my W worked half day and spent time with the kids before I picked them up for New Years Eve dinner with my folks. We called my W at midnight to wish her happy new year and it seems as if she was in bed since 8.

On Saturday we all went out to see Alvin and the Chipmunks (the W and kids) and I dropped them back at the sister's after. On Sunday I had the girls and she later called to wish them goodnight. I asked her what she did today and she said she just stayed home.

She still stays home all the time and seems melancholy but oh well.

As for me, I'm happily detached. Even with my friend gone, I can say that I enjoy my life now and am not looking for anything. I remain standing for my M, yet I'm not "waiting" for anything. I have left everything up to the J-Man upstairs and know that either way I will be okay.