Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

Its hard not being able to talk normally. It almost feels to me sometimes like I'm lying, b/c I can't be open/honest like before.

Well, just when I think things are getting to a normal routine here with just us girls in the house, D12 as a major meltdown.

She is my sensitive, "dramatic" child with alot of sass. It seems out of the blue to me- I pick up her and a friend from the movies tonight and remind her that she didn't finish her weekly chores-one of which is to cook dinner that night (and its 630pm)...Once we're home she works on dinner/chores with lots of anger and banging around. Now she goes on a tirade about how me and her father (but mostly me) have ruined her life.

There is no reasoning with her. Active listening doesn't help. She is obviously depressed and will admit that but refuses therapy-which I think I will need to have her go, willing or not.
She wants to spend all of her time at her friends house(whose parent are separated but living in the same home) b/c they are more of a family to her than me and D14.

This is killing me, b/c there is nothing I can do immediately to fix this. Separation, MLC, divorce all hurt us adults, but I think they hurt the children more. I have a hard time getting past the anger at H, for what this is doing to the kids. This is the stuff he'll never see, b/c the kids don't rant or explode or even emote when he's around for fear of reprisal(his anger/yelling). I get the tirades, b/c I listen and I feel and I respond and care. Or maybe its just me the provokes it? I really don't know anymore.