Moving on with my life!

[S.T. _I Made It!]

I really liked what Gabby said. when do you focus on you? not much when compared to exh.

For me, I think even the negative attention from exh is what I am craving. Its something and when I am tired, lonely, bored, mad, sad..whatever it feels good to have something. Its totally flawed thinking. I get that

try to start looking for your selfworth within yourself and God. It doesn't come from him. When you feel good about yourself, love yourself, and believe your huge worth, you don't need to get attention from him.

I agree that checking the emails isn't good. there is NO reason right now for you to make a decision to start dating him. therefore, there is no reason to check to see if he's "being good".

because of his history and his personality, he MUST be single for a year and be okay with himself, and be okay/away from his addictions before you should consider dating him.

in regards to the baby texts, I think that if you can handle him sending them, I think there is no problem with it. but ask yourself, are you able to handle it? there are lots of other things you can do besides that to detach yourself from him...including the emails... and taking your focus away from him period.