Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

It's been a quiet weekend with d8, weather has been arctic all weekend, kind of like STBXW it seems. Just kidding, I actually have a lot of positive things going, and just needed to laugh tonight, and probably shouldn't at my STBXW expense, but oh well, she can sue me. Oh, wait a sec, she is! LOL..

Anyways, I have been ruminating about my sitch, as I spent a lot of time this weekend putting together financial doc's for the L, and still have more to put together, and it's just kept my focus on STBXW and the sitch..

Ruminations On IWITW......

How is it, that things come to pass in such a manner? IWITW is reflecting on the past few years, and wonders how he came to be so different a person than he ever envisioned he would be? Angry. Hurt. Why was his life in shambles? How can it be, life was so cruel! Full of disdain, and taking it out on everyone but himself, lashing out, or even just silent and seething...

Truth be told, it's easy to see now, that IWITW took it out immensely on himself, and the inability to acknowledge and see through his own 'fog' fed into the cycle and burst the seems.

He can see it now so clearly, the real IWITW is edging out again, and while there is much work to do, he is looking at the 'surreal' past 10+ years in shock and awe.

It is to bad, his STBXW will not be around for the real IWITW, and only got a poor representation of him. She may be in her own 'fog' now, but it lifted IWITW's when that bomb dropped. It is unfortunate that there is also a lot of collateral damage from that bomb hitting it's target. Love, like war, is unclean and innocents get hurt when the shrapnel flies.

(Apologies to any armed services personnel for my imagery above....)

Well, that's enough reflection for IWITW for tonight, this week is going to be busy, but back to somewhat normal schedule after the holidays are now over, we'll see what this new year has to offer...