Hello, I'm not being very successful at staying with the LRT. I am not known for being a patient person. I know I should be doing this for myself, but I still am hoping that doing this will bring H back. I tried several times (email, text, phone calls) to get him to stay for my New Years Eve party, but it didn't happen. Then the next day I tried several attempts to get him to come over and watch a movie with me, again unsuccessful. When he does come over, it always ends in R talk )-: With him telling my I've hurt him so bad, he does not think he can ever come back for fear I will do this again. By the way, he is talking about me telling him, I wanted him to leave 4 times in the last 4 years. I tried to explain, that those were said out of anger. I tell him that now that I know how he felt, rejection, I would never do that again. When I tell him I love him now more than ever, he tells me that he does not think I really love him. I'm still not sure if there is an affair or not. Nevertheless, whatever is going on with him, it's as if he is very depressed, maybe MLC. I keep trying to come up with excuses to contact him. I can't help myself, even though I can tell it is pushing him further away. Even my therapist tells me I need to stop pursing him. Can anyone offer advice on how to control my emotions, so I stop this pursing behavior?
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10
