Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

I've tried imagining my 'current' H as my best friend of 21 years, and his behavior just doesn't cut it. As much as he espoused remaining friends forever, he just doesn't act like one. I can't call him up to go see a movie..we're just not there and I'm not sure if we will be again.

I think its harder when they are at home. Hang in there-find time to get away and process stuff privately, if needed.

I think its normal to mourn the loss of that best frend we had-like a death of sorts..it takes time. I still mourn my Dad who died 5 years ago. It hits me less frequently as in the beginning, but when it does hit, it always packs a wallop. At Christmas my uncle(Dad's brother) broke down a bit with me and said he missed my Dad more than ever. Time heals some of the pain, but the hole they leave behind is always there, just smaller..but always there. Its a reminder of he love we had, the place they had in our heart(and still do).