K4D It's a Wonderful Life

[K4D]

As I am sitting here watch the Dallas Cowboys play, I thought I would go ahead and post my goals.

Save enough money to buy a house.
Book a flight to Jacksonville Florida for a few days to see some friends.
Study and hunt for a new better job in which I will not be paying anyone fees.
Continue to update my wardrobe.
Continue to make myself stronger.
Improve my prayer life with myself and my kids. I have started teaching them the rosary.
Become stronger as an individual.
Come up with a formal schedule and plan to meet with my friends on our business idea.
To get back to dancing lessons and improving to a next level.
To find enjoyment in myself, my kids, and God's will for my life.

I did talk to the L. I won't be able to afford a custody fight and things could swing against me if I take it on.

I don't think God is leading me to do that either as He seems to be closing the door off to that one. I did a lot of praying about it and basically asked God to stop me if it is not what he is wanting me to do because I was at my wits end with this. He is managing to stop me.

P.S. I have read everyone's posts. I have done a lot of thinking this weekend. My anger has subsided. I will not show any kind of approval for W's continued actions. I have not rehashed the subject with her and I won't.

Last night I discovered I accidently used the bank card to her account. I pulled out the money to replace it from my account as well as some extra money I owed her for D7's Christmas present and I left it on her table at the house as me and the girls had to run by there while she was not there to get a few things for the girls. I sent her a text explaining where the money was and why it was there. I didn't hear back from her. I hadn't heard from her since the conversation on Friday.

Today she called while I was in mass. I called her back after wondering why she would need to call since I have the girls with me unless she was just wanting to talk to them. She told me she wanted to let me know there is a circus in town tonight and we can get free tickets to it. She thought the girls would enjoy it. Then she said she would go, but she will be working tonight. I said thanks and we have a lot to do to get ready for the school week again and we probably won't make it. She said ok. Then she reminded me that D12 has choir starting back up again downtown tomorrow. I said we will see if we make it as my bosses are in town this week and expecting us to stay late. She said yes that I had warned her of that and to let her know by 5 if I can't so she can take her. I said fine. I still do not have anyone that can fill in for me when I have to stay late as far as picking up my girls and bringing them home. I am really stuck on that one.

This is going to be an extremely busy week for me and I am not looking forward to it. It always seems like my bosses show up and want us to work late when I have my girls.

Kevin