Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Gnosis,

I've learned that I am still holding on.

I haven't accepted the reality of it all.

I was/am weak around her.

Even though she lies to me, I let her off the hook, by not calling her on her lies.

I am vulnerable to what she says/does.

I don't value myself enough to D my W.

I don't feel good about myself.

I have low self-esteem.

I realize that I am a "fixer"

I KNOW how to DB, but I don't always follow, as I get mired in my own self-pity.

I learned that there are many good people on these boards that honestly care about the people they try to help. But it is up to the individual to listen, and do the work required to become a better person. I struggle with this some days.