I do say that I know I deserve better, why I can't FEEL that way, I have NO idea.
I am hanging on because of my boys, and I believe in the covenant of M.
Am I hanging on because I think I can "fix" her? I dunno - I don't think so, but not sure.
I WANT my M to survive. I want my M to rise from the ashes through this, but I have doubts. I don't know if my W can EVER be honest about anything-how does a guy deal with that?
You can't feel that way because you are CHOOSING to feel miserable.
She threw you a bone(r) and a few encouraging words, and you fell apart. I get that you needed the physical closeness, but you should have said lady, I wouldn't f*** you with someone else's d*** right now. You knew she had been with at least two OM, but you sacrificed your self respect and slept with her. Take back your self respect.
Make her earn you. You are acting like a lovestuck teenage girl. Let it go. Step back and see what she does next. Stay on course.
and a few encouraging words, and you fell apart. I get that you needed the physical closeness, but you should have said lady, I wouldn't f*** you with someone else's d*** right now. You knew she had been with at least two OM, but you sacrificed your self respect and slept with her. Take back your self respect.
