Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

SG,

Thanks for the 2x4's.

I do say that I know I deserve better, why I can't FEEL that way, I have NO idea.

I am hanging on because of my boys, and I believe in the covenant of M.

Am I hanging on because I think I can "fix" her? I dunno - I don't think so, but not sure.

I WANT my M to survive. I want my M to rise from the ashes through this, but I have doubts. I don't know if my W can EVER be honest about anything-how does a guy deal with that? I don't know how long I can wait to see.