Ok, because I deeply love her. I just can't accept/believe she has done this. I desperately want to believe her, and what she says-but I don't. I KNOW I deserve better, I KNOW I do. I guess I am scared of what I don't know.
Jesus, what am I doing hanging on to this woman? Why am I putting up with this crap?
I feel like a fool for wanting to salvage my M. Why am I working so hard for so little in return?
I do not believe that think you deserve better. If you did, you would take charge of yourself.
Only you know why you hang on, but when you stop hand wringing, and do the work, you will get the clarity you seek.
You're not a fool. We are all here for the same reason. BUT... You are working harder, not smarter. When you start to focus on her, redirect your mind. You are choosing misery. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot, man? Like I said, you are a soldier. A warrior for America and you are a TEXAN.
Do you think I can believe my H took off and left me with 4 young kids? Well, yes, I can believe it because he did it. So what? His problem, not mine. I am making the best of my situation. Yes, I have periods of sadness, but I don't waste a minute wondering why, who, where, what. I spend my time thinking...rebuild, restore, recover. I am better than him.
