Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Sad Girl,

Ok, because I deeply love her. I just can't accept/believe she has done this. I desperately want to believe her, and what she says-but I don't. I KNOW I deserve better, I KNOW I do. I guess I am scared of what I don't know.

Jesus, what am I doing hanging on to this woman? Why am I putting up with this crap?

I feel like a fool for wanting to salvage my M. Why am I working so hard for so little in return?

I don't know why I am so scared of not having her in my life. I really don't. How can I still love this Woman, after all she has done/put me through? I HAVE GOT to get a grip on this crap.

I don't deserve this, I really don't. I'm scared of being alone. SO STUPID.