Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

After thinking about my sitch, I feel as if my W was testing me, to see if I was still on the "line" so to speak. When she realized how easy it was to "have" me, I think/believe she lost respect for me. I think she thinks I am the same weak guy she left, and now finds me unattractive in that aspect.

I feel like I should do something to try to regain that respect and dignity I lost. What does a guy do though?

Thoughts?