Please read my new thread and think about it. I can't take away your pain (I would if I could) but I understand it better than most. I felt everything that you are feeling. I also felt that he would wake up one day and "get it". Well, 8 plus years later - he does not!
You cannot change him or what he did to you. You can only change you and your reactions. Please focus on your future and that of your daughter. And let him go.