sorry for not posting in a while - I guess I have given up - feel pretty low right now so that doesn't help. It's WAH birthday today - I sent him a short message but other then that we are not talking at all.
After he went back abroad I had a nice NYE and a nice New years day - my friends are going out of their way to make me feel included in festivities. I am so grateful for that.
But inside I just feel numb and helpless - mornings are the worst - funnily enough I never think about what WAH is doing now or who he is with - I am not interested in that - all I am interested is to know the truth about my marriage and why it ended. I guess I just want closure and move on and because I might not get it I feel pretty desperate.
