25...I do read. I do agree. I feel a backbone when I am done reading and then I weaken. For me, I think even the negative attention from exh is what I am craving. Its something and when I am tired, lonely, bored, mad, sad..whatever it feels good to have something. Its totally flawed thinking. I get that.
I am sick of him thinking/knowing we sit home night after night. I want that 180 mystery at least in his mind.
He doesn't want a real R. He wants to continue being the town womanizer.
Good Mornin' Startingover2.
You've got to get to where you respect yourself enough to let go of people who don't value or respect you. And you've got to get to where you don't care what he thinks...about anything! He doesn't value or respect you, at least right now. He wouldn't be doing what he's doing if he did. And if anybody else knew that you were sitting at home, would it bother you? Then why should it bother you for him to know it? Stop caring what he thinks...about anything. You don't have any control over that anyway, so don't bother. You do, however, have complete control over your own thoughts, feelings, and actions. So, exercise the control that you DO have.
I hope you have a better day.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
