Oh Alison, this must hurt. Have you got your eldest home for the holidays? might be good to have some company. You will always be their mum,so stop that line of thought. Just now they are being difficult but it will pass I am sure. As for being old,well I bet Isabella's mum is feeling even older that was a long labour.You are in your prime,an attractive vivacious woman who has a lifetime yet to live. Prospects of a new job, your own home and an independant woman. This sadness will pass,it all takes time. Memories of happier times are bound to resurface but you can and will make new happier memories. Accept what is and make plans for what will be. Thinking of you. Take care.
