A Wife that has come back? Post Affair feelings ,,

[Deep]

(((Kara, Sandi, Lotus, GIMA, rocked, cutter))), indeed every one of the DB family. I appreciate all your kind words, no, I'm honored by them. Talking to you here through the months has been such a support.

Sandi, many of your words especially resonated with me, including the 2X4s. And GIMA, reading through your sitch, you're a walking example of "Strength and Honor" in how you are holding yourself up.

DB success? I wouldn't be that presumptuous - afterall, if nothing else, many of us here, LBS, WAS, whatever, have learnt at least one thing, and that is never to take things for granted. Lots of ups and downs and challenges to come (expectedly), but for W and myself to have found ourselves and our M as it is now, is a blessing I can only ascribe to the mercy of God.

This child means so much to us. W had undergone a series of X-rays and blastings on her kidney stones during the first weeks unknowingly. We were told he would self terminate and to abort if not by the gynae who delivered our first 2 kids, which was why we switched doctors. I've always been pro-life, W had always maintained she would be practical and choose termination if the foetus was compromised - she could not quite hold that line when it came to the crunch, as she put it "easy to say, but not easy to push that button". I was half dreading this to possibly cause another schism in our M. A decision point where our beliefs varied so much and where we hoped never to be tested.

The 2nd gynae gave us some hope. And we took it forward day by day, me praying almost every day, and both hoping the tests we took duing term would not come back with results that would shatter us.

And now, here we are. There's still fear, still unknowns, but right now, just a whole lot of gratitude, hope, and happiness.