Thanks so much. Everything is consistent with his past behavior. His lying to me in New York about being in a serious relationship and about getting married again. He said he wasn't serious with anyone and he wasn't planning on getting married. And then 2 months later he was married. When I called he said he had proposed and the other night on fb I found out he already is married. One lie after the other. And I was so good to him. I loved him...
I am still looking for answers. I have a hard time sleeping at night wondering why he did this to me. I wake up thinking about it. I am going to start going to counseling but in 4 years I still haven't been able to forget. This thing plagues me.
I wonder how someone can be so decietful. Is it some sort of personality disorder. I grew up with families that stayed together. Men took care of their wifes and children and didn't throw them away like garbage.
That's what I feel like - Like I was thrown away... and so was my beautiful and innocent daughter - and I don't know why. One day my husband was normal and the next day he left. A month before he had planned everything behind my back and gotten an apartment without me knowing. On his 40th bday he moved out... I didn't even know - I was on a trip and when I came back I walked into my house and everything was gone... It was devastating.
I feel like emotionally I was completly violated by this man. And this woman he's with has no idea what a monster he can be. He abused me verbally all the time and really hurt me emotionally. I feel like he is nice to this woman - but why? What was it about me that evoked such rage and wrath? Why did he hurt me? And my daughter. It's unfair. I want answers. I want to be able to sleep again and not feel like my life is over and he wins and I lose. I hate that...That's not fair because he was bad to me - shouldn't he have to suffer? Why is it I am the one who has to?
Any comments would be really helpful... I need to vent. People don't understand...no one does... All my friends are married to good guys - I am the only one who got stuck with a jerk.
