beginning to see the real W

[Dr LOve]

YoYo.hey lady I cleaned out my p/u bed..do you want to have a tail gate party?????

Ok here ya go...

I have really been in a funk lately. Not sure why except I have shut down my feelings for so long It is kind of hard to turn them back on.
I am getting way better at NOT taking things personal. That is a big problem with me. Just yesterday W was asking me where I have been looking for work. It’s a legitimate question but right off (In my head) I thought ‘why are YOU asking me about getting a job... YOU have not worked for over 3 years Maybe YOU should start looking”…Yes I thought this but did not say it…

Ok some positives…another thing I have taken ‘personal’ were that W never had a picture of me at her desk when she was working. She had our S and D’s but not mine. Then on her computer her screen saver is that same way…
Well about a year ago I bought W a digital picture frame that you can load about 20 pictures into and it give you a slide show. This year she finely put it out and guesses what??

There are several pictures of me…
She has been really nice and it truly does seem like the fog has lifted. BUT...I am so afraid that if I try anything. The curtain will drop again. Yes I know this is MY problem that I need to get over but I have been shut down so many times in the past... I have do have more to write but W is watching Harry Potter and wants me to watch it also/ Plus she made us margaritas…..Next step is to figure out a way to try to seduce her without coming off as trying to seduce her. Getting a job is my first priority right now...