I know I need more time I am just frustrated tonight. My parents are very smothering sometimes, especially when it comes to my son (this is their first grandchild and I am an only child). I have become so used to having my own space that I am starting to feel smothered here.
I could get a place of my own but I really have no reason to be in the state where husband and I live except if I actually stayed with husband. We don't have any close friends or family in that state at all. If I rent an apartment it will be in my homestate and I will just put son in a daycare here. I know that my thoughts are centered around fear. Fear that once I find a place in my homestate (7 hours away from husband), enroll son in daycare, etc. then my marriage is really over and I would be done with it as well. see, once I get settled I would not move back to state with husband even if he did want to work on the marriage. I hate having to keep uprooting my baby due to the craziness going on in our marriage. You are right though. I am staying put and trying to just deal with my current living situation. I guess this is why you shouldn't leave the marital home. Husband is rather comfortable in our apartment while me and son are crowded in my parent's home.
Me: 28 H: 32 1st marriage 4 both 1 1/2 year married 2gether for 9 1S: 6months 1stepson: 2yo
