Got the message, Lotus.. Pondering more but I did reply...
Thanks K! It was a pretty happy new year...
Been cleaning like a crazy person today, trying to reorganize the house and feel focused before going back to work.
Something strange happened yesterday. I decided I really don't care if I lose my ELL job. I decided to ask BBJ what she really wanted to do with her life, and it is NOT teaching ELL.
Turns out like most other areas of her life, she has become great at fitting into holes that other people/schools have so that she can meet their needs, not necessarily her own! (Go figure...)
OK can't refer to myself in third person anymore, weird! Anyway I have tried to be as 'marketable' as possible for a long time, with all of our moves. So I take the jobs that are available. I thought about what job I have liked the most yesterday. I really liked early intervention (special ed. preschool for 3-5 year olds) and Elementary Resource (working with kids in remedial reading and math programs in grades K-3).
So I decided that I am going to focus on getting a job in one of those areas as soon as I can find one. It might be next year, or the year after. But I will keep focused on that career-wise. Good news is the two remedial reading teachers in my building are around 60 so they will retire soon. (There is an incentive for teachers in IA retiring around age 62)
My dream job would be more along the lines of helping out poor kids in dire straits, like the three I sponsor through World Vision. But I haven't found a job there that matches my skill set. They need professional fundraisers, accountants, etc more tha teachers! So I still get to help the underdog with a remedial teaching position.
Been working slowly through "Getting Past Your Breakup". It talks about how moving past the relationship allows you to make decisions for yourself for what may be the first time ever! (In my case for sure, marrying right out of college.)
To choose vacations, jobs, homes, life goals because they are truly what I want to do with my life, instead of being what fits in with my husband's life and career path, is going to be so new and different! I have already started down that line with the landscaping and some interior design upgrades. But there is so much more out there that I think I am about to discover.
OH, but for now I am still in the chapter on going No-Contact with your ex. (Except for talk about the children of course.) Turns out I need to re-iontroduce myself.
Hi. I'm Bobbi Jo. I am addicted to communicating with my almost-ex to keep our connection alive....
But I am sure if I will keep reading it will help me learn to STOP THAT!!!
Happy New Year all. Time to shower and get ready for a party...
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