S17 came to see me today. When he had been here about an hour he got a text from XH to say he was taking OW to hospital as she had gone into labour. That was about 3pm this afternoon. It's now 11.20pm and still no sign of a baby.
I wanted D14 to stay here tonight as I didn't think it was fair on S17 to have to be responsible for her as XH clearly isn't going to be home any time soon. She refused. That hurt - a lot but I couldn't tell her that.
I've kept it together the whole afternoon whilst I've had one or the other of them here but now I'm having a few tears. It's not b/c of the baby it's b/c I'm remembering how XH was with me when our children were born and how proud he was and how much he loved me then............ I can only tell that here b/c everybody else thinks I should just forget about the past but it's not that easy is it?
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
