Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Hi newmama. Thanks for checking in on me. I'm dragging... feeling low. Miss my kids today... WAH got them without TMing me or emailing. I was notified through the kids. I'm feeling through with him. I've been too hurt. I'm wanting this to be over with. He's been too cruel. Maybe I'm too sensitive and haven't been able to hang on like everyone else. I just don't see why I should keep trying now. I've reread some of the threads on why I should keep trying. I feel like I've been a failure at DBing and probably should have called a coach early on. Probably should have had a PI find out in the beginning about OW. Hindsight is 20-20.

I'm understanding about his guilt and shame for the way he treats me, but come on! Be a man! Face up to it.

Is this dropping the rope? I sure hope so. I'm not looking forward to coparenting with him with the way he is now. I hope he gets humbled soon. The attitude is just too much. I hope the OW is seeing this side too.

I'll shut up now... not a good day for me. Venting...