Another Sad Deployed Soldier/Dad

[Another_Soldier]

I think i already messed that up earlier, I didn't follow any of the advice i had been reading on here over the last 3 days. I contacted her and out of desperation I told her that I want to completely trust her and i love her more that anyting in the world. I told her that I am going to let go of everything that had happened and not worry or get upset even though she can't tell that it is killing me inside. I told her that she needed to figure out what she wanted weather or not she wa happy with me as her husband or if she wantd to seperate she needed to let me know so i knew what to prepare for when i got home. I don't want to lose my family and I have always said that if that ever happened to me x, y, and z would happen. Guess what it is not the case when it does happen to you. Your crushed and your thought process changes and all i can think about is losing my family.