Moving on with my life!

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I agree with you Kass. An A not in recovery cannot use those excuses.

So exh is back to sort of hiding again. No big shocker. I guess he had some issues with his d15 on NYE. He hasn't seen baby more than 1 hour combined all week. Missed his visit yesterday and does have one this morning. We will see if he makes it.

I must look as pathetic as I feel. I was hoping on the outside it wasn't showing but I guess it is.
For the past week or two my mom has been telling me about these strange dreams she has been having that exh came to her and told her he wanted to get back with me! Now I know my mom isn't a dream person, but she was just fishing for information about exh and I. She asked me last week if this was a possiblity..I said no. He has his life the way he likes it.

So tonight I am at her house for dinner (again) and she asked me what baby and I did for New Years...I told her we went to McDonald's, came home and was in bed by 9 just like every night. She said she felt sorry for us! LOL

Then 20 seconds later she blurted out "I think you need to get back with exh" I just looked at her in amazement. I said number one he has a gf and a whole string of women. He doesn't want to get back with me..he just likes playing with me. He likes his life the way it is. She said I should ask him if he would be interested in getting back together! I had the same shocked look again and she said well you have been alone for almost 2 years now, nobody has wanted to date me and I am worried you will be alone. She said baby needs her father and I said what about all the things he has done? She said well maybe you can not worry about that.

Thanks mom! I feel like crap. I feel like she is saying to me exh..the liar, cheater, alcoholic, manipulator, cruelest man on this planet is the only guy I will get so just see if he will take me back.

Wow! Just wow! I know my mom worries about me being alone and not finding anyone again. Heck, it doesn't sound real appealing to me either. I guess what was so shocking is that she basically said if I could get exh back to look the other way regarding his cheating and drinking just so I wouldn't be alone. My mom is 88 years old, had a wonderful marriage to my father, and just doesn't get it.