Think OW is here in my house right now!

[aflowergurlie]

Hit a bump in the road yesterday and last night. Ugh. Just fell into a depression yesterday and didn't leave the house despite being invited to get out. Maybe I just needed a day to wallow or whatever, I don't know. Not really how I wanted to start the 1st day of 2010, but oh well.

Last night, a little after midnight, and in the height of my loneliness, I was wearing a cute t-shirt that has a picture of Gumby standing with his arms up like he's shrugging and a puzzled look on his face and behind him faintly in the background is his horse Pokey. Above this is a caption that says "Looking for my Pokey". (Pokey was a nickname for H.) I took my cell phone and snapped a shot of just the caption and picture on the shirt (which I have to say, was tight on my boobs and little around my waist, couldn't believe how great I am looking with my weight loss) and then texted the pic to H - no words or anything, just the pic. I haven't done anything like that since before my DBing days and while I had a smile on my face when I did it, and knew in advance I would receive no response and didn't care if I did, I'm just kinda disappointed in myself that I gave him the time or energy to let him know I was thinking about him/missing him.

So - just needed to vent and tell on myself, lol. Ok, so I let myself have a couple days, it's time to get a grip and get out of this funk....ARGGGHHHH!