Long Journey .......... advice please

[Sanderika]

Happy New Year (((((Cas))))),

I am feeling your thoughts and just wanted to tell you so....

I have been following along with your holidays, posting for me is once again painful.....I can't quite figure out why I go MIA so often. All I know is the subject matter is way to close to my heart and sitch and it's very painful for me to read so many like stories.....I hurt for us all.

I know you are a very strong-willed and wonderful person, you will be fine with your choices. It doesn't make them easier to follow....times will continue to be confusing and unjust to us, at least for a while longer.

I am thinking that if H and I follow through with a D, "civil" will be a possibility, while hopefully contact will be minimal. "Friends" = Impossible, for me it will be too painful to be a friend with what has happened between us and the fact I have no respect for his choices.

IMO for our H's wanting to be our friends (after D) will validate their choice and they won't deserve that gift from us.

Rabbit, It would break my heart too and I would never heal, rather remain in this state of want, wanting what would apparently be unattainable and delusional.

I still feel it is a shame for two people to D who have so very much in common and a mutual likeness for each other which is undeniable. A likeness which could very easily become a deep love for one another once again.....It takes two however to want the same things.

I have to stop rambling.....

Let's reach for Happiness in 2010!!!!

(((((Hugs))))))

Sanderika