Why can't I just do it!?

[ClingingToHope]

You know Trixi it occurs to me you've allowed him to take control again. When you said you were done (dropped the rope), it seems as if he picked it up.

Now you are waiting on him again. That's happened to another person I've been following -- C-Bart.

I'm about two months away from having the money for a retainer and trying to prepare myself mentally to be the one to get things going.

Deep down, right now, I still want to wake her up. But looking at C-Bart and you, it seems as if the WAS really is interested in control. Perhaps they feel they didn't have enough of it, I don't know.

Perhaps you need to get back in control here.