Not really piecing and trying not to jinx it, but

[Freckle6]

Had a great NYE with H. He brought champagne and everything! I haven't been kissed at midnight since before my son was born. The last NYE before he moved out was horrible. He was out and I couldn't get a hold of him until 4 a.m. And there I was at home with a 6 month old baby. Last night made up for that though!

Things are really feeling good. I'm still scared to get too hopeful about things but it's going on almost 2 months now. In all the back and forth with him the last 4+ years apart, never has it lasted this long and never have we been in a place where we talked/texted/IMed as much as we do every single day now.

Last night he said he almost brought his cat over with him! That would have been interesting. I have our 14 year old, very lazy and docile cat, my 5 month old obnoxious kitten, and he has a 2 year old cat. We talk about his cat putting my kitten in its place so she leaves our older cat alone.

He was telling me about a largish bonus he expects to get at work in the near future and started teasing, saying, "I'm going to have a flat screen TV." I told him that I wouldn't have one any time soon and then he said that maybe we'll share a flat screen TV... He does make lots of comments about doing this or that to the(my?) house so I know it's on his mind to some extent. I still think it's too early, but I'm not as scared about it being a complete disaster anymore. At one point last night he was talking about how picky he is with things being in their place and his little cleaning idiosyncrasies. I was like, "Hello. I know all this. I've lived with you for quite a while and married you." He was like, "Oh, yeah!" and laughed.

Oh, and another one for the "out of the mouth's of babes" book: I asked my 5 year old today if it's going to be a good year this year. I told him that I thought it would because it's started off pretty nice so far. He chimes right in, "Why? Because your husband was here today?"

I've been able to catch myself in plenty of time, but more and more I find myself almost about to say ILY to him. Not even as some huge declaration of feeling, but just the random ILYs that you throw out there without thinking in a normal M. Must not go there yet!