Also, Bunny, regarding being in "the lifestyle" too long or being addicted to sex like DQ suggests, it might be telling that you made the leap from mindfull's caring
Originally Posted By: mindfull
...how about a HUG!!!
to:
Originally Posted By: SpyBunny
That was one thing I was able to avoid this whole time- the girl on girl scene. smile H pushed hard for a FMF over the years, but uh-uh, nope, not interested, I held my ground on that one...
You might want to explore DQ's observations with your IC, an IC who specializes in it or even just some research on-line.

I don't mean to offend, here, at all. It was just a connection that I wouldn't have made. But then again, in the term you once used, I'm "vanilla".

And I hope you get stronger, heal, break free, and someday meet a real, caring man and realize how sacred a flavor vanilla can be!

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac