Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Ok,
I just woke up, nothing from W.

I thought about my sitch last night trying to fall asleep.

Am I kidding/fooling myself into thinking my W is going to change?

I mean, she basically denied doing ANYTHING wrong except for kissing the OM from dallas.

I am NOT dumb/stupid/niave, I KNOW something else happened. I can feel it.

Why won't she admit to it so that we can move on?

Will she ever admit to the A? Knowing my W, I don't think so-she has an explanation for everything. I have, in the past, bought her explanations for things-not M related, but financial etc.

What am I doing thinking of reconciling with this Woman?

I am really hurt and confused this morning, and don't know what to think/do about my W.