Well, it's finally here! My husband sent me a text last night that he can sign for our house on January 15th! And then our household goods will be delivered shortly thereafter. Whew. That's one thing off my mind.
My MIL is speaking to me again, which I suppose is good. And she even apologized for overstepping her boundaries. I think I may invite them to come down and see the kids again this weekend (they stay in a hotel rather than with us) since we will be leaving soon. A show of good faith.
I'm very excited to be moving, but also apprehensive. It was so unfair - my mind cheated me of my excitement last night and I couldn't seem to redirect my thoughts. As soon as I got done talking to my H on the phone about the house I started thinking how worried I am about this being a good thing. We are so rough in our marriage right now, and I cry so much still. I need to be (or at least appear) strong and happy and motivated...like I was when we dated. But I don't feel that way much yet.
What seems silliest to me right now is how upset I've been with him for being absent these last few weeks. I've spent about half of our five year marriage taking care of everything by myself. So what's the big deal now? I suppose it must be the A. So I'm trying to detach. She's not that important and I can change things in spite of her. This too shall pass.
Right now I'm trying to decide what approach to use once we get moved in with my H again. Do I act as if things are good between us except for the A (which I won't discuss or bring up at all) and hope things go well as a result? Or should I act like we're roommates and let him feel what life will be like without me? Or should I try something else entirely?
I'm still working on my 180's and GAL. And I'll keep doing that no matter what goes on with him. But I think it may be even tougher in some ways being with him than apart. There are definitely more pros than cons, though!
Wish me luck, my friends. I am so sick of moving! Actually I'm mostly sick of packing. And I'm open to suggestions on how to approach things once we are there.
undefeated 24 H 24 S's 4, 2, 1 M 5 yrs
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." ~Dale Carnegie
And I'm open to suggestions on how to approach things once we are there.
