Bunny, it may be helpful for you to also know that most "swingers" are untreated sex addicts, feeding off each other's illnesses. They are usually completely unaware of their condition. One thing most addicts have in common is that they are delusional about what their "drug" is doing to themselves, their bodies, the people in their lives, etc. Until at last, at some point, something happens that makes them realize some hint of their delusion. At that point, they may spiral even worse out of control so as to stay "happy" in their delusion, along with their drug...or they may begin to take the baby steps toward recovery. It can be a lifelong process to recover, as with all addicts.
I just wanted to mention this to you, as you may not have realized that all the men you have accepted company from are actually using addicts and are also pushers/dealers.
Maybe this will help you realize you should pull completely out of that scene to get clean and healthy.
DQ
^^^Wow.^^^
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
