Worst New Year's Ever, I was a wreck all night and a majority of the day today but kept it in the road. W did not call at midnite but I knew that was a pipe dream anyhow.
One really good positive although a weakness on my part. I got up early this morning and needed to get milk and bacon for breakfast for kids. Drove by the house of the #2 OM, its to easy just 7 miles from our house, his truck and his W's car are in the driveway. WOO HOO, they are working it out and that means he should be out of the picture hopefully for good. I almost texted his W last night b/c I thought that my W might be w/ him and had never gone out of town. Glad I kept it together.
While I was at the store and snooping on #2 OM, S9 woke up and called me. Said he wasn't feeling good, I told him I would be home in 15 minutes. I told him to call Mom and tell her Happy New Year and tell her "Dad was not home", it was 7:30 am so I knew he would get her voice mail. Hopefully planted the possibility of me having OW and meeting for booty call. I did not tell S9 where I was and what I was doing, just that I would be home in 15 min.
Well I expected she might call back by 10 or 11, no call. She has not spoken to S9 for 4 days (not only alien W, but alien Mom too). This part no one can understand about her as if she never had children !@&??? Had son call again at 11 am, no answer. I texted her at noon that S9 wanted to talk to her, nothing. 30 minutes later get text: Got the bracelet. It is beautful. Thank u. Have hangovr. I will call in a while. I texted back: glad u like it, we will be outside throwing football, I got my cell. She texted back: Took ibuprophin.....going back to sleep. I texted back: u can't talk to him just a minute, its been 4 days?
Nothing for 4 hours, she finally called at 4:30. I was about to fire off a couple of scathing texts right when she called, whew! I pulled it together quick and acted like there was no problem and we talked about her evening and mine, everything was upbeat and positive and we confirmed her coming over to the house tomorrow morning to hang with kids while I am at work. Bowling as a family is up in the air, which usually means no. So I have no expectations there. She spoke to S9 for a couple of minutes and he put me back on the phone to say our goodbyes and neither one of us would say goodbye, you know we keep going back and forth ok, ok , ok , ok....finally I said talk to later, goodbye. It was weird, 5 minutes earlier I was ready to tear her head off for not calling. I think there is a power struggle going on here. Just not sure what she is feeling, duh.
After tomorrow I have to go quiet for a couple of days to see if she contacts me. Only other nagging issue is the lawyer thing, separation agreement and all that BS, I think I am going to casually ask her what she wants and pending what she says just say okay, no problem just have her lawyer draw it up.
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.