Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

Thanks Sandi, I think I had almost become addicted to the trying to watch and its is probably best just to let go at this point, you have confirmed that. I have taken away all the easy routes, the non-stop communication has been stopped. I suspect as I said a couple of posts again, I am pretty certain it is a couple e-mails a day back and forth.
I will continue to watch.
Yesterday was up and down again. From coming home after a 3-4 hr hair appt and coming up to me for a hug when she came home, to an hour later being annoyed with all of us (kids and me even though I had the kids all day), to later out of the blue sharing some more personal "issues" (out of respect for her I will leave it at that) that shocked me (shocked that she shared) and I appreciated, to her telling me she had assumed I would go thru her medication and figure out (which I didn't and she realized--she had checked), to staying tense/angry watching a movie, to allowing a good night hug.
So, I'm baffled at this point.
So maybe the up and down for the 2nd day in a row means little or no contact. Who knows.

I guess there is no way to "privately" contact you. There is something I'd like your opinion on, but a bit too personal to share on the forum. If not, oh well, not critical.

Got to say, this has been the most "gutwrenching" New Years I've ever experienced, because I'm just no optimistic that 2010 will be better than 2009, and 2009 didn't turn out so hot.