Thanks, gima.
I had already stopped attempting to make contact. Last night was just a honest wish to all.

I have no control. I will stop completely now.

But I keep thinking the question all of us on this forum have all asked ourselves at one time or another in one fashion or another (usually, of course,in relation to spouses):

How does a person simply discard a loved one?

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac