Last night, I sent an email to all four kids, even STBXW:
May 2010 bring us peace, healing, love, and the fulfillment of all of our hearts' desires. My love to you all,
Gardener/Dad
An hour or so ago my son calls me and says, "Did you see (StepD's) reply? She Replied To All, too." Me: "No" Son: "Sorry, Dad. Go look."
I did.
Gardener: Stop contacting (partner) and me. (StepD)
Eighteen years of loving her and treating her as my own... Still haven't heard from/gotten any replies from StepS, either, in weeks.
This hurts. Badly. I had hoped that with the end of '09 would also come the end of so many losses.
2010 begins and continues the same. Add to the Loss Tally Sheet: StepD, StepD's partner and new baby Granddaughter (or should I say former-StepD's daughter?). Obviously StepS, too. And while this may be minor compared to so many other sitches, I'm beginning to wonder how much more I can take.
This certainly challenges my "Don't take anything personally" and 'Don't make any assumptions" from The Four Agreements. am losing that challenge, today.
And while I don't usually use "Text-ese", WTF lies has STBXW told them?!
Again, Happy New Year to you all.
But in general. happy f*cking new year.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
