Hey CTH- It's funny how the grass can look greener on the otherside-- I mean, I suppose I wouldn't want my H to be totally cold towards me, but otoh, it makes it awfully hard for me to give up. Last night he came over to celebrate new years--we were also supposed to talk further about his scrambled brain. We never talked. As he was leaving I said "hey we were supposed to talk.." and he cut me short and said "yeah, I know. We'll talk over the weekend."
You don't have to be a rocket scientist to know where that's going to go. I mean, if he was inclined towards talking about reconciling, doing so on NYE would have almost seemed appropriate. Putting it off til the weekend smells like "I didn't want to ruin our celebration." Nothing was said either way, but I could feel that he had backed away some.
He acknowledged the other morning during the scrambled brain talk that probably we would have to not talk for a long time so that we could move on (if that is what we were going to do.) I know that we haven't officially made a final final decision, but still, it just seems like we would have talked last night if we were headed in a positive direction.
I guess I don't need to worry about packing. :'(
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
