Well this time last year Im absolutely positive I could never had done what I did the last couple of days! But thanks to my 180's I have to say Im just a bit chuffed with my old self!

I have struggled with the fact that I am back with H but so far he has told everyone we are back together without me present, so I was feeling a great sense of him not being proud to be back with me... So NYE I went with him to his apartment and was introduced to his landlady and then taken to the NYE's evening down at his local. Had a fab evening and it was even nicer to be told he was really pleased I was there with him.

I felt sick driving down in the car most of the way but managed to stop the incessant chatter I do when nervous, and went for the quiet me, H recognises now when Im struggling with something I go quiet instead of kicking off, so he kept rubbing my shoulders and snuggling me to him, to comfort me.

Anyway my aim was to be the loveliest, nicest, attractive, kind, sexy, fun lady I could be so all of H's friends wondered why he'd ever wanted to leave me. I have to say they were all lovely and as we snuggled together to welcome in the new year, H said "it has made me laugh that all of them have said they are pleased to see us together again" Several came up and said "they wished us all the best for 2010" but it was said in such a kind manner especially as I'd never met any of them before it was so nice to have their support..

I dreaded 2010 coming as I knew it was time to tell H to GAL on his own or with me but not in limbo, Im so glad I didnt have too!

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W 47
H 47
M 24
T 30

Once lost but now found and happily married again!