I'm through the first part of your initial thread - I relate so much -- I am a panicker, I am an at-home wife who is trying to get through the long lonely days and trying to re=enter the work world after a 5 year hiatus, I have also gone up and down with my DBing- whew, you are still an inspiration to me and I'll keep reading....your discussions with Eskimo Nell were really great. Very focussed. But this is your thread now, right?
Well this time last year Im absolutely positive I could never had done what I did the last couple of days! But thanks to my 180's I have to say Im just a bit chuffed with my old self!
I have struggled with the fact that I am back with H but so far he has told everyone we are back together without me present, so I was feeling a great sense of him not being proud to be back with me... So NYE I went with him to his apartment and was introduced to his landlady and then taken to the NYE's evening down at his local. Had a fab evening and it was even nicer to be told he was really pleased I was there with him.
I felt sick driving down in the car most of the way but managed to stop the incessant chatter I do when nervous, and went for the quiet me, H recognises now when Im struggling with something I go quiet instead of kicking off, so he kept rubbing my shoulders and snuggling me to him, to comfort me.
Anyway my aim was to be the loveliest, nicest, attractive, kind, sexy, fun lady I could be so all of H's friends wondered why he'd ever wanted to leave me. I have to say they were all lovely and as we snuggled together to welcome in the new year, H said "it has made me laugh that all of them have said they are pleased to see us together again" Several came up and said "they wished us all the best for 2010" but it was said in such a kind manner especially as I'd never met any of them before it was so nice to have their support..
I dreaded 2010 coming as I knew it was time to tell H to GAL on his own or with me but not in limbo, Im so glad I didnt have too!
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
Well its been a lovely few days, cuddles really do seem to keep Mr Rabbit ticking over in the LL's.. We went out together to friends of ours last night and had a lovely time, only got a couple more days with him and hes back off to his place, its going to be tough getting through the next month as he has his classes to finish down there, and we cant really afford for him to keep driving back and forth the two and bit hour journey, but compared with being apart before it should be much easier..
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
Good news Rabbit... I think the past few days will have given you both a good foundation to get through the next bit until you can be together more again. So, what about you and your LL's? Are they being met?
Funny you should ask RW my LL's are the same as H's Touch and Words of Affirmation.. I am also very lucky that my soul is fed also by my lovely horse, nothing as much fun as being with her and having cuddles and dashing about together..
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
So after a round trip of about an hour when it should only take about half hour to do it both ways Im back home. H is away gone of to do his photo course only to find it cancelled cos of snow so could have stayed here till the weekend. But no wibbling from me just getting on with it as usual! So getting on with some extra chores today to free up more weekend.
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
And good for you on the 180's!