Lost, I know that this is difficult for you, but you are still trying to analyze his every move....don't. You are going to drive yourself crazy.
What you want for your girls is a stable environment, an environment, whereby they have a roof over their heads, food on the table and the love of both parents. Right now, you are the stable parent. Your h does love his family, but that is stuffed way down at the bottom of his soul. There will be times when he will do something that is totally normal for the man he was. These are called moments of sanity.
Keep the focus on you and your girls! Allow God to have the time to work on your husband.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
