Ok,
Now that I have really screwed this up, is there a way I can recover and move forward?

I feel so stupid and wish I could go back in time, and make the right decision.

Looking back, and thinking about it, I feel like she played me, seeing if she still "had" me. Why did I fall for that crap?

I guess I want my M to work so bad-I thought she was being sincere.

What have I done? What can I do to fix this?

"embrace the suck" - Coach
"don't go all "Melty Man" on us" - Puppy
Let Go and Let God
Finally "Got It" - 15 Jan 2010

SoldierDad